For the Queen

Poetry

My mother could have been a queen
But for the crown, but for the #blood

And she would have comforted a nation
Would have laughed, in royal shades
And cried in lavender hues, born blue

~Now the country stills

For a queen
That could have been my mother
Sister, daughter, friend

I do not cry
For monarchy, no

But for the woman
Who wore a crown
And held a nation
Like a babe at breast

And when all should faulter
Might shed a tear and weep
For her duty

For there is wealth
Spread vast between our worlds
But our hearts are one

#RIPQueenElizabeth

~G S Scribbles~

Strangers

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We are all just strangers, aren’t we? Ships passing in this lonely night, and should we meet a stranger who sparks a light in us, we walk with them, for awhile at least. But none of us leave together. It is both our tragedy and our delight as humans. So tonight, I ask, if strangers is all we are, do we ever really know someone? Behind the smiles and the laughter? Can we ever really know someone? Does anyone really know me? Sometimes I think yes. But then a wave of loneliness hits, and I realise that perhaps we never can, for we are not coins, two sided and flat, but prisms. So in this life the best we can hope for is to be understood. That the people closest to us will take the time to try and understand the very complex creatures we are.

I seek to be understood. Perhaps that is why I write, so someone might glance a paragraph and think, yes, I understand you. I see your passion, your sorrow and your joy. Maybe then, when I am understood, when I am taken as a whole, complex and imperfect, full of dreams and darkness, I can look back and think perhaps I was not known, but I was understood. Perhaps that is when the loneliness ends. When you can look into the eyes of those around you and know they choose to stay, because they are your people, the ones who understand.

G S Scribbles

The Devils Gambit

Stories, The Devils Gambit

Chapter Three

“Bart, wake up.” Shae yelled.

Nothing.

Impatient and driven by her panic, she pushed the door open. He was just as she had imagined, asleep on the roll, whiskey bottle leaking the last drops of its contents across the floor. Some of it had seeped into the mat where he was sleeping. She gave him a kick. Nothing so hard it would hurt, but hopefully enough to jolt him out of his self-inflicted coma.

His eyes opened, his drunken haze lingering.

“Bart, they’ve taken Ana.”

“Shae?” Sleep was still rolling around his mind. It bled across his tan face, and wrinkled in the crow’s feet that stalked the sides of his dark green eyes.

“They’ve taken Ana!”

The fog seemed to lift from him for a moment.

“Ana?”

Shae threw the piece of paper at him.

“Have you seen anything to do with this?”

Bart’s eyes focused and refocused as he tried to concentrate on the scrap of paper.

“Is this written in blood?”

“Bart!”

“I thought you were dead,” he said, standing. He wiped his face and tucked the paper into his pocket, kicked the whiskey bottle to the wall. Then he was moving, walking down the stairs into the Tavern. He took a bottle of booze off the shelf and swigged the bottle. Shae said nothing. She just followed. Looking away as he removed his shirt and replaced it with a cleaner one that was tucked under the bar. He took a glass off the shelf and poured some brandy into it, pushing it to her.

Shae downed it. She wasn’t much of a drinker, not really, but when Bart poured her one, she always took it. The familiar warmth was soothing.

He smoothed the piece of paper on the bar.

“They took Ana?”

“They killed all the animals.”

“Who have you got mixed up with this time?” he sighed.

Shae frowned.

“I was hunting out a cult, but that was months ago. I couldn’t find them.”

“Well, looks like they’ve found you.”

“They’ll regret that.”

“I don’t even know what I’m looking at here Shae,” He lifted it up to a shaft of light coming through the window above the Tavern door. “We don’t have any cults here.”

“Haven’t you heard anything? Whispers? These people didn’t just come through and murder everything on the farm without a single trace.”

Bart rubbed his head.

“There was something, but this was last month. This guy, scrawny fella, he was asking about you. Of course, no-one told him anything. The moon witch, he called you. He had this burn… on his right hand, seven prongs twisted. And in each of the spaces was a number. Three, Seven and Thirteen are the ones I remember. I told him to get out. His kind wasn’t welcome here. Creepy little man.”

“Can you draw it for me?”

Bart took a piece of paper from under the bar, sketched the image out with a piece of charcoal.

“What if you can’t find her?”

“I’ll find her.”

“It’s no lead.”

“I have one more to follow.”

Bart stared at the ceiling.

“Want me to come with you?”

Shae laughed.

“And have your blood on my hand’s too? Sophie would never forgive me.”

Bart’s face darkened.

“I thought you were dead.”

The void

Poetry

They call it the void
The shadow realm
That calls to us
When all light goes out

The surrender
The silence
For we know darkness
Do we not?

It is the ghost
That never leaves
The hand that grasps
That cradles loneliness

And we have grown
So comfortable
With monsters
We barely fear it

But we must fear it
For its embrace is final
Its kiss cold
But it is winter

This night, so very long.

~G S Scribbles

The Devils Gambit

Stories, The Devils Gambit

Chapter Two

Shae arrived at dawn, red sky spilling blood across the small cottage far off the beaten path. It was silent, so silent. Bear stopped at the gate, breathless. He wouldn’t go further, wouldn’t pass the boundary. Shae couldn’t waste the time to calm him. She pushed the gate and ran.

“Ana!” Panic was in her voice. She knew this was rash. Her training told her to scout the building, to scope the perimeter, but there wasn’t time. “Ana!”

No reply came, and as she approached the front door, broken at the hinges, her heart hammered.

To her left she noted the dead chickens. Not a single living bird had escaped the slaughter. No pigs sounded, no sheep or cows. Dead. She knew she didn’t need to see the bodies; the silence was enough.

Inside, the floor was slick, blood coating floorboards like carpet. She moved deeper, breath held. Her knife found its home in her hand.

“Ana?” She breathed her name, searched every room. The living room first, then the kitchen, finally both their bedrooms. Ana wasn’t there. She went back downstairs, frantic to find a clue, to the back door a note was pinned, inked in red, a single word, midnight.

It was a time. But where? She ripped the note from the door and headed back to Bear.

Bear was where she left him, distressed but fine. She stroked his nose and slipped a carrot from a side pocket, he refused to eat, lips nestling into her hand rather than the treat.

“Come on, love,” she whispered. “We’re going to talk to Bart.”

The horse was happy to leave, and Shae rode with a heavy heart. She was tired; she hadn’t slept in nearly two days because of Enzo’s antics. She should have just killed him, a game she’d let run for too long. It always felt so wasteful to kill for the sake of killing. Strange, perhaps, for a bounty hunter, but Shae had a code. Her code mattered little now, not with her sister in danger. Somehow this was connected. She knew it. The note in her hand crumpled in her fist. Bart would know what to do. He always did.

The Tavern was closed. Shae tied Bear round the back, and he drank greedily from the barrel of water Bart left out for the horses. He took the carrot now and chewed it enthusiastically. 

“I won’t be long, rest, we don’t have a lot of time.”

Shae looked up at the building. The doors were all locked. Bart would be on the second floor, sleeping in a room that was too small for any man. A roll mat instead of a bed would be his comfort. His wife would be at home, draped in all the finery he could afford. Bart didn’t love her. He wasn’t sure if he ever had, but he wouldn’t leave her either. So, on nights when he ran the bar, he slept above the Tavern. He worked every night now. Shae wondered if he’d ever be happy. Today was not the day for questions like that. His self pity would be an obstacle. 

Shae used Bear as a lift, leaping up to the second story with the ease of a trained burglar. She slipped the firm tip of her blade beneath the window and prised it open.

“Bart?” she called into the building.

No answer.

“Bart, I need you now,” she said. “You better not still be drunk.”

When still no reply came, she slid in through the window. It was a small room, but not the room Bart would sleep in. She’d stay here sometimes, her things still sat on the sides. It had been nearly three months, but he left them there, always assuming her return.

She did not hide her footsteps, but walked with purpose, till finally she came to the room that would be his. She knocked four times. His snoring was the only response.

Rest in peace little fledgling

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On Saturday, mid afternoon I found a young bird dead in the pond. It broke my heart to see him, eyes closed, could have been sleeping, and for a second I hoped he was. That I had found him in time and could scoop him from the waters edge, he’d be a little soggy, but otherwise alright. Perhaps he’d need a little care, but that was ok. He wasn’t. So I set about digging him a small grave amongst the flowers.

‘We should just throw him in the bin,’ that’s what the people around me said. He was dead already, and he was gross. But I couldn’t. It felt so unkind to the small life that had barely begun. And I know he was just a little bird, his life (or hers, truth be known I don’t know,) would have been one of gathering worms, and feeding chicks. But it was a life, one that had ended in nothing but panic, trapped beneath a net, probably driven there by thirst. And I felt that I could do this little bird one final service, a place to rest. So I dug him his grave, and buried him. I could give him a final resting place. Somewhere to sleep his final sleep. Perhaps I did it more for me, because of the responsibility I felt. I don’t know, but I know that to me it felt right.

So where am I going with this? Asides a tribute to a creature that was as much alive as you or I? If only for a short time? Kindness. The world is bitter, it is unkind, and so often unfair. But somewhere in there, I beg that we can all find the kindness to take the time to bury a little bird. To place a flower on their grave and remember, it is by our own grace the world is good, and our own inaction it can be terrible.

Be kind my friends. Take the time to do the things that may not seem important, because really it is those things that make this world bearable.

Rest in peace little fledgling. I’m sorry your time was so short. May there be peace for you somewhere.

Love always, G S Scribbles

The Devils Gambit

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Today I have started by adding the first in a multi-edition story, I will be attempting to write regular chapters hopefully a few a week, which I will add to the blog. You can find the story under the stories tab, though I will be making a page just for it eventually. The story will follow the main character, Shae, as she battles with her need to save one of the people she loves most from a terrible deal with the devil. We’ll meet all kinds of people together and go on many adventures, It is my hope that you enjoy it.

Much love, G S Scribbles ❤

The Devils Gambit

The Devils Gambit

Chapter One

The air was dank. Shae threw a log onto the fire. It crackled as moisture evaporated from the wood, leaving the scent of char thick in the air. Shae barely noticed. She was listening. She thought she’d lost them in the woods, but now she isn’t so sure; she can hear whispers. The first arrow misses her by a hairsbreadth. She rolled past the fire, grabbing her own bow.

“Enzo, you’re losing your touch!” She gloated. Shae often gloats. She has that way about her, a confidence that shines even when peril is at its highest. Some would call her brave. She knows she’s just lucky.

Bear was the name of her horse. He snorted loudly as Shae parried a second arrow with the moon-kissed silver dagger that never leaves her hip. Three low whistles and Bear charged off to her left. The unnamed assailant sneaking up behind her never saw him coming.

Shae laughed again. “Oh Enzo, where are you? Best stop this charade before someone gets hurt.”

Enzo knew the ambush was reckless. He’d told his patron to wait until Shae was asleep, then perhaps they’d have even odds, but they didn’t listen. ‘Now!’ They’d demanded, it had to be now, this hour. He’d lost count of the times she’d slipped through his fingers. She was a witch; of this, he was certain. Still, she was on the back foot, and he hoped that one of the three men encircling her would get lucky. That was all he needed: one lucky shot to land. Hope evaporated as Bear rounded on them, knocking each down, never slowing. The horse was a demon, or a ghost. None saw him coming. By the time they were on their feet, Shae had taken to the horse’s back. Enzo lined up a final shot before residing himself to another failure. As he took aim, ready to fire, the moonlight failed, ducking behind a thick sheet of cloud. Only the firelight remained. Captivated, he watched the shadow of the woman take down his three men, all giants compared to her, all tiny as they lay defeated on the floor. He didn’t wait for her to find him. When the last man fell, he ran. Shae did not follow. He knew she wouldn’t, she never did. He feared the day she found him first. Perhaps she would come in the daylight, brandishing nothing but her hands and that haunting smile. Perhaps she would never come at all. She would take him in his dreams. A knife slipped between the fears he had concocted for himself. It didn’t matter. This was the last time, he vowed. The last time he’d take a bounty on the witch of the Western Rise.

Shae buried the men and placed markers on their graves. ‘Fools,’ she thought, as she gathered up the coin from their pouches. Then she froze. Nothing scared Shae, not a knife to her throat or the pull of a fierce ocean, but now she was afraid. In one of the coin pouches there was a necklace, a crescent moon, crafted from moon-silver. The necklace was unique, forged many years passed by her father. He had made only two, and one hung around her neck. This belonged to Ana, her sister. She had never seen her without it.

Shae did not stamp the fire. She did not roll her sleeping mat, or take the half roasted rabbit from the spit. She took to Bear before the moon had emerged from the passing cloud, and in a haze of dust, she headed home.

Why I write poetry

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Hey guys, so I’ve noticed a few people talk about why they write prose or poetry, personally I do both, but I’d like to talk about poetry right now. I never thought I’d write poetry, I happened onto it on twitter. Just a short piece here or there and as time went on I realised I loved it. The words were freeform, I didnt have to set myself a boundry. I could be just the thoughts I was thinking. Just the moment I was feeling. It took me a little while to open myself up into it. I was afraid people wouldn’t like it. That I wouldn’t get the Rhythm right, or it wouldnt rhyme. But eventually I came to the understanding that it didn’t matter much, my words would take me on a journey. The people who like to read them would find some of the delight, or sorrow I found when writing them. It was freeing, and addictive. So now I very proudly say; yes, I am a poet. And sometimes people think its strange, and sometimes they roll their eyes, but you know what? Let them, there is a joy to it that I cannot explain, for a few moments, in some of my poetry I am able to capture that ephemeral feeling of what it is to be me, and I love it.

G S Scribbles